Getting caught up!

Alright fore-warning I'm gonna get caught up on 4 days of missed blogging in one post so its gonna be a hefty post and since I'm on my work computer the pictures are going to be few and far between but the fact that I'm writing is all that matters right?! RIGHT! I've had a horrible week and what I'm sure will be a horrible weekend but what can you do, life happens right, gotta keep my head up and keep moving.

So the last thing I blogged about was my favorite TV show so today I will be writing about my favorite book, my favorite quote, whatever tickles my fucking fancy, and a favorite photo...which I'll need to find. So I'm gonna write this little ditty down and then take a little break and find a picture and get my wits about me.

**jeopardy theme music** (imagine if it was on a loop) 10 minutes later....my computer is being a butt munch and won't let me find my favorite photo...so I guess I'll just update that bit when I'm at home.

BAM just kidding I fixed my computer and now we're in business....lets start!

FAVORITE BOOK!

Okay this one is easy! My favorite book is Memoirs of a Geisha, if you haven't read that book I suggest you close the browser and go to a library or book store and get on that shit.

The book is just what it seems...the memoirs...of a geisha. It was made into a movie, ignore that, that movie blew ass.

FAVORITE QUOTE!

Okay whilst surfing the internet trying to find my favorite quote on a pretty picture or something interesting I found a quote that while not being my favorite really hits home for me as of late.

I've been going through a time in my life where I'm not exactly sure who I am or what I want to be but this quote just give me hope that someday I'll know all those answers and I can finally start to live my life the way I want.

But really my favorite quote is "Trust is everything." and it truly is because like the above quote says, you can't even live your own life the way you want until you trust yourself and you can't be with anyone else the way you want until you trust them.

WHAT TICKLES MY FANCY

Well really right now its less of what tickles my fancy and more of something I feel like I need to write about explain a little. Everyone warns you when you start working with elders that you can't get attached because they are in these places to die and they will and if you get attached you'll be sad, well its true...you do get attached but how can you NOT?! When you see these people everyday and they walk by your desk and talk to you.

I'm saying this because one of the old ladies that I was close to passed away and I'm completely destroyed, that woman was one of the nicest people to roam this earth and right now as I type this they are doing her memorial service in the living room and I've never seen a turn-out this big. They expected about 15 or 20 of the residents and I think pretty much all of them are in that room right now.

She was one of the most loved people and I'll always remember her walking down the hall with her tabasco sauce in her back pocket and watering the flowers.

Love you Ms. Amelia R.I.P.

Okay and now on to something a bit more happy!

A favorite photo...I'm not sure if this is a general favorite photo or a favorite photo that I took but I'm choosing the latter (spelling?)

I know this isn't really anything speical but I love this photo. I took it when I was in London in the summer of 2009. We were going past Big Ben and being the tourist that I am I already had about a thousand pictures but I felt like I needed one more so I turned around and snapped this picture then later looked at it and realized that fence made the perfect accent.

It's pictures like these that make me realize the beauty in the ordinary, and it was so easy to capture that beauty in europe and I hope one day to move there, that'd be freaking sweet.

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Alright I've done my job and gotten caught up on all this and I'm sure writing for 4 days in one post is against the rules but I don't care!

Krystal out!

Day 3! Oh my god, what does this mean?! Anyways on to Day 3 of the BLOG FOR 30 DAYS CHALLENGE!

Favorite TV show...easiest question ever.

If you know me but AT ALL, you'll know my favorite TV show is Sex and the City!

I remember the first time I was ever introduced to this gem of a show. I had come home from a friends house and it was the evening and my parents were watching HBO....I walk into the living room just as a pretty raunchy sex scene comes on and I'm like "WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING?! Stop watching porn."

I was grossed out, then I started to sit down with my parents and watch the show (awkward) and I realized its about so much more than sex! So great.

Well I was gonna skip today because I wasn't really feeling up to writing much but I decided I'm on a roll I better keep it going!

Krystal out!

Nobody Puts Baby in the Corner!

Oh HOT DAMN! Two days in a row, I believe this is some kind of record. So day 2 of this blogging challenge...is....**drum roll** FAVORITE MOVIE.

Well just like yesterday I'm gonna list my top 3 movies in ORDER...so if you are a good kid just read the #1 movie and ignore the rest, if you're a rebel read them all. Take a chance.

So ladies....and well lady, because I'm sure only one person reads this....lets DOOOO IT!

#1 Movie of ALL FREAKING TIME! DIRTY FUCKING DANCING....okay so its not called dirty dancing its called Dirty Dancing and its fucking fabulous (please excuse the language).

Seriously I mean who doesn't LOVE this movie...it contains everything! Romance, adventure, music, comedy...lets be honest that's all you really need.

The acting leaves a little to be desired but this movie is from 1987 so really we can't complain...and Patrick Swayze was a FOX in that movie!

Okay lets movie on (get it?! its like MOVE! Only MOVIE cuz we're talking about movies.....?.....huh......shut up) the number 2 movie took me a second because I already have 2 pictures saved on my computer that I can use...and I had to ask myself, both of these movies are equally fantastic but which have I seen more?

Here it is ladies....Ace Ventura: When Nature Calls. If you haven't seen this movie go drown yourself, its great. Hilarious! If you don't find Jim Carey funny then I can't help you because you obviously have absolutely no sense of humor....oh man....goooood times.

Now the third movie I'm not even gonna defend because most people I know hate this movie so I'll simply post a picture and leave it at that. Judge me or not!

Krystal out!

double rainbow all the way across the sky

I think I'm gonna start writing again in this dang blog. There is just so much going on in my life (sarcasm) I have absolutely no free time to just sit around (sarcasm).

Apparently sarcasm isn't well recieved over the internet. The truth is that during the week I pretty much do nothing but sit around...so why not start blogging about the things that happen in my life? The only person who's blog I read regularly is Jess's and she does cute little challenges and fill in the blank days, and lets be honest I'm nowhere near clever enough to do those in any interesting manner, but I am gonna try!

Sooooo first off, let me first say I'm doing this at work because I was supposed to be doing a little project for the business manager but he decided not to show up today, so I spent some time reading Living Judaism, then spent some time starting the project, aka putting in resident names into a spreadsheet (took about 6 and a half minutes)...then I read some more...then I surfed the web...and now I'm blogging! (I get paid money to do all this yee-haw)

OH! Some things that are/will be taking up some of my time are my Intro to Judaism class which......

20 minutes later...

Sorry about that some old lady needed help sorting her mail which she hadn't gotten out of the mailbox since like June. Crazy old folks, I love em...

ANYWAY I was saying my Intro to Judaism class lasts for 6 months...at the the end of which I hope to convert. Yeehaww..

Also...I'm going back to school, at the community college by my house so I can get my pre-reqs out of the way so I can go to nursing school...cuz I love the old folk and if I'm a nurse I can make more money and work with the old folk. Cheeee haw.

Now on to more important things like the 30 day BLOGGING CHALLENGE...dun dun dunnnn.

Basically, there are thirty prompts, each day there is a different prompt...and you write (or blog if you will) about each prompt...therefore you are blogging each day for thirty days. What a concept.

So I'm gonna list all of the prompts here so it looks like this post is a lot longer than it actually is!!

Day 01 — Your favorite song

Day 02 — Your favorite movie

Day 03 — Your favorite television program

Day 04 — Your favorite book

Day 05 — Your favorite quote

Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy

Day 08 — A photo that makes you angry/sad

Day 09 — A photo you took

Day 10 — A photo of you taken over ten years ago

Day 11 — A photo of you taken recently

Day 12 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 13 — A fictional book

Day 14 — A non-fictional book

Day 15 — A fanfic

Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly)

Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)

Day 18 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 19 — A talent of yours

Day 20 — A hobby of yours

Day 21 — A recipe

Day 22 — A website

Day 23 — A YouTube video

Day 24 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Day 25 — Your day, in great detail

Day 26 — Your week, in great detail

Day 27 — This month, in great detail

Day 28 — This year, in great detail

Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days

Day 30 — Whatever tickles your fancy

Holy CRAPOLI thats a whole lotta bloggin' Lets see if I can do it. I highly doubt I will but A for effort right.

Okay so Day 1 is supposed to be my FAVORITE SONG!

Well to be honest I'm not the kind of girl who has a favorite song, mostly I have a favorite song for about 2 weeks, during which I listen to that song NON-STOP. And right now that song is....The Double Rainbow song...from the youtube guys who do Autotune the News...its so funny that I listen to it constantly...the lyrics annoy everyone around me, except my pseudo little brother Tyler who sings along with me, but I don't care!

Well I would write more about the song but lets be honest, I already wrote enough above so I say I'm DONE!

Well...its been fun...that didn't waste as much time as I hoped it would but alas. Hopefully my other blog posts will be a lot better if Jess would tell me where she gets all her awesome pictures! Then mine too will be full of pictures! And maybe even glitter...if I can manage it I'll put glitter right into this blog.

Okay. Krystal out.



Happy 101

Well its safe to say its been a LONG TIME since I've blogged, I guess I just kinda forgot about it but now I'm going through some really important events in my life. Well just one important thing...converting to Judaism. I've been wanting to do this for a really long time and I'm finally taking the step towards getting there. For now I'm gonna post this award thing and I'll update about Judaism a little later.

  

Jess at LittleMsSunshine awarded me this happy101award ! 

its these little awards and quizzes she does that makes me like to blog sometimes.

Well I guess for every award there are rules, and I gotta DOOOOO something. So I will.

Rules for happy101award

-- post who gave you this award. 

-- state ten things you like.

-- give this award to 10 other bloggers

    and notify them with a comment.

10 things I'm really lovin':

1. Sitting in bed (even though I'm sick) watching Sex and the City.
2. Finally taking an Intro to Judaism class.
3. Reading The Hunger Games trilogy! :)
4. I can finally wear my boots again!
5. When my little Foxy dog jumps around and barks when its time to go to work.
6. Playing stupid time management games on my computer.
7. Can I say being happy? I'm lovin' being happy!
8. Chocolate chip cookies!
9. Writing a blog entry!
10. Having a shirt with my face on it from when I was a kid!

Lend me your ears...

Well its been a while since I've wrote anything. So I guess I can get you caught up to date on my life...because its SO fascinating and you are all just dying to know what I do! 

ANYWAYS, I am now on anti-depressants, thats new...so of course when I get medicine I do extensive research and am fully aware of all the side-effects, even the most rare. Part of me is glad to know these side-effects because I will be aware of them if they happen to crop up, the other part of me freaks out every time I get a headache like OH FUCK MY BRAIN IS IMPLODING. THE PROZAC!!! So thats not good. However I did realize that taking it at night is NOT an option for me, because it fucks with my sleep schedule like none other and if you know me at all you know that I love sleep. Sleep is number one on the things I love...followed closely by food. 

Okay so now on to this little thingy-ma-bob that Jess tagged me in. 

Here's the rules...

1. List 6 things you are a master in...

2. Pass it on to 6 bloggers you think are masters of friendship, and make blogging so awesome. (That sounds like someone pulled that straight out of their ass..."masters of friendship" give me a BREAK...couldn't it just say "tag 6 people to do this" and plus I don't know 6 bloggers so I won't be tagging anyone...I'm just a bucket of sunshine today huh?)

OKAY 6 THINGS I'M A MASTER IN...other than breaking hearts and taking names. Just kidding...or am I?!

1. I like to think I'm a master in video games from my childhood. Notice how I said CHILDHOOD...I suck at modern video games. HOWEVER, I kick ass in games like Mario and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles...and one of my favorites Sonic. So yes video games like that I am a master! Or video games similar to those such as Spyro and Crash Bandicoot...and Jak and Daxter (except that game was hard as SHIT).

2. I'm a master of cuddling. Especially if the other party is a cat. I cuddle my cat like it's my job. Wouldn't that be awesome? To get paid to cuddle a cat.

3. And leading directly from cuddling...sleeping. I am THE master at sleeping. Not just A master...THE master. I could sleep ALL damn day. Here's how much I am a master, if I get less than 9 hours of sleep I'm a cranky mess. On a normal night I get at least 10 hours. I've slept so much of my life away and I don't even care.

4. Wouldn't it be clever if I said "Not completing things" and stopping it here...ah such the cheap way out...and I'm not one to not complete things so that would be a lie.

I am literally looking around my room at stuff thinking...what am I a 'master' in...this is sooooo sad.

Real number 4. Kristen Stewart at the end of "Twilight" impression. It took practice and patience and watching my friend Kim do it multiple times. But I've perfected it and according to my pseudo little brother Tyler it's "oscar worthy". Ask for it sometime, its worth a laugh, but then again so is Kristen Stewart.

5. Singing in my car. Yes I can be a master in that, don't question my choices. It takes skill to sing in your car with the exuberance that I do, having that kind of performance and driving a car without dying is one of the most skillful assets a person can possess. 

6. Getting distracted on the internet. I love this new toolbar I downloaded called StumbleUpon...you click "stumble" and it takes you to some random website based on interests you enter. It's horrible addicting. Please don't download it, it'll ruin you. I just spent like 30 minutes "stumbling" instead of writing this.

That's all folks, I can't do it anymore, my brain hurts. I'm really not a master in anything so these were me taking small talents and pretending I'm a master. I'm a master at pretending. Tomorrow I shall find a quiz that's so basic it'll make your brain explode from the boring-ness. Yes that's a word. 

Peace out girl scout. 

Past couple of days...

Where to start? Oh yes I have 2 days off! Monday (today) and tomorrow so thats always good. Anyways on sunday I had agreed to hang out with a old college friend Dane because he lives near lakewood and I haven't seen him in ages. 

So we met up at Chili's and had a margarita and I got my love (CAJUN CHICKEN PASTA) I could eat that stuff everyday if I could afford it. Anyways we caught up, talked about life and such, then we decided we still wanted to hang out so where better to go then Holiday Lanes on Colfax and Kipling. The most ghetto bowling alley on the earth. So away we go to meet Dane's friend Andy and Andy's girlfriend Laura. It was a lot of fun except I suck at bowling but let's be honest that makes its MORE fun. I had a great time and got to talk to Andy about his brother who lives in LA doing acting. That's the latest I've stayed out in a long time because usually at night I kinda just sit inside and read. 

Well today, I expected myself to sleep till noon then take my mom to work at 1:30 cuz Art was out with her car. But alas, the phone woke me up at 10:15 so I got to eat taco bell which I've also been craving (why am I not 4000 pounds?!). Well I took my dogs with me cuz they love to go 'bye bye'. Zeus barked at the drive-thru guy. GOOOD times. Then Art got home early so I asked Stacey if she wanted to come along while I ran some errands. I had to go pick up my tips at the car wash and go get some spot treatment for acne that I read about. Well I got the tips then we decided to go into the Vietnamese supermarket by the car wash because I've always been curious about what's in there. So we went in and the first thing I see is a GIANT FAMILY SIZE PACK OF.....KOALA YUMMIES. Only in this case they were pandas but it was the exact same thing. Biggest box I've EVER seen...for 5 dollars. I didn't get it but now I know where to find them! Not sure if anyone else ate these as a kid...I miss them.

This is a picture of the strawberry ones but the chocolate ones were the best! OH MAN!

Well we continued to look around because it was interesting and we kept getting weird looks because we were the ONLY white people in the place. We found aloe water which had like floaties in it. GROSS. And then we also found like 2 aisles devoted to ramen like products. We finally decided to leave when we had the feeling the employees were following us.

Then we headed to Ulta. Where I found the spot treatment stuff but it was 12 bucks and I didn't want to take the chance that it wouldn't work so I skipped that and we spent like an hour sniffing perfumes. I decided to head to Target and just get a cheap spot treatment then I could buy myself something pretty in the mall, and maybe some peanut butter chocolate covered pretzels from whole foods (if you haven't tried these I HIGHLY suggest that you do, your life will never be the same)

SPOT TREATMENT BOUGHT. 5 bucks! ALL RIGHT! That's what I'm talking about. Then we head out into the mall and go into Forever 21...oh my I love Forever 21. I see a very pretty floral dressy thing in the window but couldn't find it in the store so I gave up and kept walking. Then we stopped and looked at the ripoff sunglasses booth and the lady would not stop following me and suggesting sunglasses. Then my step-dad called and pointed out that it was nearly 4 so I freaked out and thought it was time to go but I stopped in Forever 21 on the way back because I couldn't let this cute thing pass me by. It's totally not my style but its so springy and cute...and it was only $17.80 so I gave in and bought it! I lovvvvveeeeee it!

Please ignore my DISGUSTING room...Isn't this precious...meh I love it. 

Here is a close-up of the top with the flower's. YAY love it.

Anyways then I went to therapy and blah blah blah! END OF DAY!

Now I shall read my book and watch Sex and the City!

Alice in mehhhhh

I'm about to kill everyone's opinion of this movie. I have heard that it was either VERY GOOD or VERY BAD. However, I don't want to take either of those sides. I rate it 'Meh' I got bored to be honest. I didn't find it good at all. The girl who played Alice was simplistic and lovely. Johnny Depp was horrid, there I said it...off with my head?...I just didn't see him doing anything differently than he has done in ALL his other movies with Burton.

I am glad that Burton chose to mix Alice in Wonderland and Through the Looking Glass...other than that I felt it was just sooooo Burton...dark...I'm beginning to feel like thats all he can do, but hey if it gets him the fans and the money then I guess thats what he wants?

Well...I'll talk positive because my therapist tells me I'm too negative. SO! Alan Rickman as the voice of the caterpillar was genius. The flashback to Alice as a girl was wonderful. And uhmm...THE CLOTHES! Alice's dresses literally made me squeal at points. I want to make the red one! OH GOD IT WAS GREAT.

But overall, didn't enjoy the movie, glad I didn't waste the money to see it.

I was hoping for more, from Johnny Depp especially, he's been going downhill in my opinion for a while with his "Burton characters" so I was hoping he would prove me wrong, he didn't. Sad day.

Oh and why did both the Mad Hatter and the Red Queen have lisps? I found that annoying. Like Burton was trying to make them unique but instead they came off just dumb.

But yes, honestly the clothes made it all worth it.

Anxiety

I couldn't find any get to know me quizzes that had any good answers. So I was just reading a book I got from the library. It's called The Punch: A Novel by Noah Hawley. It's about an alcoholic mother and her 2 sons that travel across the country to take their fathers ashes to their final resting place. Well I'm not very far in and I got to passage where the mother is describing what she feels about her anxiety when she wakes up early in the morning. 

It moved me to say the least...because it is absolutely spot on to what it feels like to have that anxious feeling for no reason. 

Well here it is...

"Her heart is thundering in her chest. Anxiety. It is an ugly word. There is something about the x and y, the way it looks, the long i sound, nasal, whining. It is onomatopoetic. And yet the true feeling of anxiety, the oceanic magnitude, makes the word seem pitiful, inadequate. This panicked, galloping fear should have an entire dictionary dedicated to it, a bible."

I love that bit. 

Yikes-a-roo

Haven't blogged in a while. You know I don't even really consider it blogging cuz 'blogging' is usually fun to read and let's face it, I'm not fun to read.

Hmm...let's see...what can I talk about? See this is what I do, I go into writing without having anything planned. It's called improv. Roll with the punches.

Well I got a job, a job that is dead end but hey I'm gonna be grateful because (a) they hired me and (b) the owner is willing to give me time off to interview at others places and for therapy and auditions. So that's pretty awesome. It's just a part-time job cashiering at a car wash. Good people which I think makes a cashiering job that much easier to handle.

So I've been pretty much going to work, coming home, eating, showering and sleeping. But I have tomorrow off so I have time to sit here and write a bit and then watch a movie or something....and talk to my cousin on facebook.

It's so weird to hear her talk about her two kids, and how she goes to parent-teacher conferences as a parent. Weird because she's only 4 years older than me. And she has a 4 year old. Which means she had her first child at my age. I'm not saying this is a bad thing because I think she's an incredible mother and person for being able to handle a child at my age. Some people can do that. But it makes me think what if I was in that position. Having a kid? I'm not sure I could handle that. I'm not sure I would want to handle that more like. I guess I've always thought, if I did get pregnant I would be able to raise a child...even though I don't really want to...yet.

I think I had a dream about having kids last night because I have been thinking about that all day. Like what if I was just a completely different person that had a kid at 22.

Rambling is funnnn...I've been doing a lot of soul-searching lately. Like who am I as a person....what has made me what I am today? And although I hated growing up with an alcoholic father and I hate that he let a substance kill him...I wouldn't change my past for anything...because without all of that happening I wouldn't be who I am today, I wouldn't know the people I know.

I've also been pre-occupied with the image I'm giving to others. Because the image I see myself giving isn't the one I'm getting reactions to. I know that makes probably no sense. But basically, people talk to me about things and assume I'm this person that I don't see myself as being.

I think I need to stop worrying about what others want from me and try and figure out what I want from me. How I want to run my life, the kind of person I want to be...the kind of person I need to be.

It's a process but hopefully I'm taking steps in the right direction.



Ooooookay that was a blog ALL over the place. Tomorrow I'm gonna try and find some sort of little get-to-know-you survey I can put in here. It'll be a blast and a half.

Peace out girl scout.

Things I Love (Part DOS)

ROUND TWO! The little things in life that I couldn't live without. When Jessica posted all this she had great things that she loved and mine are going to RIDICULOUS but hey its what I love so to each their own. I love to many things. This is going to be a long list because as I was going through pictures I kept finding other things that I love.

1. My pets. I have 2 dogs and 2 cats and I love them alllll!

This is my dog Calypso! She's pretty much my life.

And her daddy, and my mom's dog really, Zeus

And Mouse. My love. She is seriously like my child. I did have a picture of her sleeping in my laundry basket but I didn't rotate it and I couldn't rotate it here so therefore I'm too lazy to fix it! Anyways....she's great!

Annnnd Misty, my first pet in Colorado! 

2. My white crochet-ed beanie cap thingy. It's lovely and I don't remember where I bought it but I love it and I'm very sad that its starting to stretch out and get dirty! Washing it doesn't do much! SADLY!

3. LOTION LOTION LOTION! I love lotion. So very very much. My two favorites are both from Bath and Body Works...and they tie for being my FAVORITE! One of them is Sweet Pea and the other is Wild Honeysuckle. Basically that's how I smell, ALL THE TIME! Lovely.

4. CHAPSTICK! You would not think this because I have the worst lips in the world. This is because my nervous habit is ripping the skin off my lips. But I love chapstick. I collect odd chapsticks. I have one from yankee candle that is shaped like a candle...and I have vitamin water chapstick called VITAMIN-SCHTICK! It amused me.

5. One of my more recent pieces of jewelry that I really love is the bracelet that Leihoku gave to me, from hawaii. She has always worn one and I always wanted one and she finally got me one during our senior year. 

It's just a simple little metal ring with three shells on it. Delicate and pretttyyyy!

6. My dad's medical dog-tag thing. It's very important to me, and I realized that wearing it actually could do more harm than good because if I get hurt and I can't speak for myself the paramedics will assume its mine and think I am allergic to penicillin. Which I'm not! So basically I just keep it as near me as I can, in my pocket, or in my purse. It's always there.

7. Bear hugs! Not actual hugs from bears, that'd be like things I HATE! Worst nightmare list. But very big hugs from ANYONE! Seriously I love hugs! I would go nutso without them.

8. Pepsi. I would literally wither away without pepsi. It is to me what coffee is to most other people. I tried to give it up because its not good for me but I couldn't do it. I went a month before giving in to its heavenly wonder.

9. The picture I took of Big Ben in London! So here's the story, London has a couple huge landmarks that one would take pictures of. One of those things is Big Ben. It's pretty huge and right outside of a tube station so people just stand around snapping pictures. Anyways I got a few from the obvious angles then as we were walking towards Westminster Abbey I wanted ONE MORE, because I am a crazy tourist. So I turned around and snapped a picture, then I realized I was taking the picture THROUGH a fence. Picture turned out amazing. I couldn't rotate the original on my computer right now so I'll show the ones I edited.

10. My eyes. It's the only part of myself that I'm confident in physically. Eyes are the windows to the soul, blah blah blah, but in my case its true, I can absolutely NOT hide my emotions because my eyes will give me away. I thank my dad for the lovely eye color.

11. Theatre. Oh Theatre! I can honestly say that even if I'm never an accomplished actress I will need to be in the theatre somehow. Theatre has given me the greatest people in my life. Everyone is so open and wow...words cannot describe. Theatre has allowed me to grow as a person and I believe it will continue to make me a better person.

12. Sex and the City. Hands down best T.V. show on earth. I feel like I know those four women personally. I could watch it all day everyday. My parents got me the box set a few years back for christmas and I peed in pure joy. I've watched every episode about 15 times. LOVE IT! I'm SOOOO excited for the second movie! YAY!

That was a whole lotta fun and relaxing. I can't wait to do more of these little things! <3

Things I Love (Part UNO)

 
Well I think its best if I split the things I love into two parts because somehow it seems inappropriate to put that I love lotion in the same entry that I talk about loving my family. So this will be the one that's like HEY I love my family and friends. And then the NEXT one will be about the little things in life that I love.

So here's my list of the big important things that I love in life, these are in no particular order! OH and get ready for a post with a LOT of pictures. I went through all my pictures to find the BEST ONES!

1. My best girlfriends (Madison and Leihoku) Stacey isn't included in this because she's more like family. Oh gosssshhhhh how I love my friends. Madison is probably one of the best people in the whole wide world and I had to be friends with a real BITCH to find her but it was worth it in the end cuz my wifey is the bestttttesssttt.

We do love our dangly earrings, because EVERYONE knows that dangly earrings get you YO SOULMATE! It's so hard to explain how much I love this girl, she's the LIGHT OF MY LIFE! So positive, I hope that someday I can be as positive as she is. 

Now on to my other bestest friend, my twin, my love, Leihoku. Oh man, I can't even believe she's my friend because looking at us we're pretty much opposites but she's the greatest. I won't ever forget going through the theatre with her. From freshman year, all the way till doing our senior thesis together, it was a journey that I will remember for the rest of my life. I cannot wait to move to L.A. with her so we can go be CRAZY RICH!

This is the first picture we ever took together. We have changed a lot but we grew together and only for the better.

This first show we were in was a LOT of fun! Much Ado About Nothing. She did a whole lotta singing, and I played a cop. Good times.

And here we are being models in London!

These two are far from my ONLY good girlfriends, but they are two who I think have changed me for the better and have made me the person I am today!

2. My Family! Oh my family, so important to me, I may act as if I hate them but I could NEVER! They are annoyingly wonderful and I wouldn't trade them for the world. I'm blessed to be so close to my mother and she chose a good man to join us as my step-dad. I've recently become very close to my cousin Theresa and now her husband and kids, I consider her a sister and her kids are like my niece and nephew. There is also Toni and her son Justin...they put up with me more than they should have. I lived with them in their small house for a whole summer while I was doing theatre. I am eternally grateful for the people that some higher power chose to give me as family.

Awww me and my mommy, ignore my dumb face, I told her to do a gangster look and apparently she is incapable. I love my mom even though sometimes she makes me want to go absolutely insane!

Of course there is Art. And this is the only picture that could possibly explain who he is. 

Theresa, and Riley and Jack...and Kevin of course but I don't have a picture of him other than the one of the family that's framed on my shelf. I'm so glad that Theresa and I became close because she's one of the strongest women I've ever met and I am glad to have her in my life to make me realize that even if you life doesn't turn out the way you had planned it can still be fantastic.

Toni and Justin! He's growing up so fast. It's crazy to be a part of his life since he was born and now to see him growing up that fast. Toni has put up with me through thick and thin and even though we don't talk as much as we used to its nice to know I can go to her with anything.

My real family is the greatest and like I said I couldn't ask for anything better.

3. My Pseudo Family: THE AEMMERS! Wow these people are fantastic. I have known Stacey for close to 10 years and her family has brought me in as one of their own. Stacey and Tyler are like the sister and brother I never had. Mommy and Daddy Aemmer are great and treat me as if I have been there all along (and yes I really do call them Mommy and Daddy Aemmer). When I'm older and wiser I will find someway to pay these people back for all they've done for me.

I love them with my whole heart! Look I fit right in, PALE PALE PALE. I can't believe Tyler's graduating in May, he's still a little runt in my mind. And Stacey, she's going to be a famous artist and I can say THATS MY BEST FRIEND BITCHES! 

I wish I could keep writing about all the people in my life that mean the world to me...how about I add some HONORABLE MENTIONS! That sounds so mean because anyone who is important to me I love with my whole heart. So basically if I talk to you on a regular basis you can assume that you make the list of things I love but I don't want to write pages and pages even though I could.

Weekend in the Fort

So this weekend I went up to Fort Collins because my cousin said she would pay me to watch her kids thursday night and during the weekend so she could see Alice in Wonderland at midnight then randomly do things during the weekend without having to worry about the kids. Well since I have no job, and I missed my friends in Fo Co I went up there. It was a pretty easy job to watch those kiddos considering most of the time I was in charge of them they were sleeping.

It really annoys me when my aunt assumes that just because I'm young means that I don't know how to take care of a child. For example, Theresa took Riley to school on friday and had to take Winny (their dog) with them because the class was learning about pets. So Theresa didn't want to have to wake up Jack and then worry about controlling a dog and a 1 year old while a bunch of pre-schoolers were excited. So I stayed at her house while Jack slept, then my Aunt Norma came over and when Jack woke up he immediately started screaming for his mama and thats normal so I just told him his mama would be home soon and he actually stopped screaming, kind of just started whining a bit. So I walk into the living room with him and my aunt says that he won't cry if she holds him, so of course I'm annoyed because she was all high and mighty so I hand him over and lo and behold he starts SCREAMING! Ugh. Thanks for ruining the quiet child.

Although being around that kids that much makes me realize that sometime in the future, after I marry my rich husband, that I do want to have a family. Just kidding about the rich husband part (or am I?) anyways YEAH.

I got to see my friends Madison, Sean, Shane and KIM! It was nice. I do miss my peoples. But at the same time every time I go to Fort Collins I remember the many reasons why I didn't like that town. The people are not the reason I hate it, mostly its the drivers and the loud people.

So I got home to a fridge stocked full of food, and my room was cleaned and Art had finally taken all of his golf shit out of my closet so there's more room...

Oscars are on tonight...but I haven't seen any of the nominated movies so I'll just watch highlights online tomorrow. This is odd for me because I am usually an avid awards show watcher. But I kind of feel like just sitting here in sweats, watching some Sex and the City and doing the blogs about what I love. Maybe that'll make me feel better!

Random post, the next one will maybe be more clever! MAYBE!

Waxing Nostalgic

First off, big thanks to Jessica for recommending the title "Aull About Nothing" as the title of my blog. Man I'm still laughing, that shit is clever. Cuz my last name is Aull...and I write about nothing. GET IT?! DO YA?! ohhhhh welcome to the land of the easily amused.

Soooo...on to my OH SO INTERESTING STORY. And my OH SO PETTY REACTION. Night. Interior. (sorry I'm in a weird mood) I go into the computer room where my step-dad has just put the dogs in their kennels. OH WAIT! Let me preface this by saying my step dad is obsessed with candles, we have like 8 in the living room and then one in every other room. He puts them on top of shelves and like hides them in plants (oh you think I'm kidding...I'm not, this shit is real) anyways they all smell like black cherry meaning their wax is dark red (this is important I swear) Also let me explain the computer room desk to you, its one of those multilayer corner desks...as seen below.

So this desk is in the corner and the candle is right above where the computer monitor is...along with an old school desk lamp. Well the pully-string for the desk lamp broke off so you have to just screw in the light bulb to turn it on and screw out the light bulb to turn it off. 

OKAY that's the background infooooo...now on to the ACTION! So I go into the computer room to ask Art if he has any advil because my uterus is trying to escape from my body. He says "Yea hold on" turns off the light and then we both hear something fall into the chair and kind of splatter. Then it clicks...he just knocked over a candle...that's been burning for quite some time. So we turn on the light and there is wax everywhere. I'm talking on the monitor...the mouse...the desk...the chair...the keyboard...the carpet. The shit is dark red...like blood...and smells...like black cherry so at least the room now has a pleasant scent. So he starts ranting and raving and rips the keyboard out of the way and like turns it upsidedown...its already COVERED in wax so that was a dumb move. I of course go straight for the monitor to get the wax off there. While Art stands around staring at me. 

Now here's a little quiz...who knocked the candle over? Was it me? No I didn't think so. So why am I the one cleaning the shit up while he just stands there....?

And then its gets worse. He walks OUT OF THE ROOM. Comes back with paper towels. For wax...yeah thats gonna get us far. Then he yells at the dogs because his reasoning is that because the only reason he was in that room was to put the dogs away is that it is their fault. Yeah because two little weiner dogs jumped up about 5 feet to knock over a candle. Yup, thats totally what happened. Then my mom has been trying to call this WHOLE time to get one of us to pick her up at work....so of course that's MY job. So I say fine I'll go get her, hey at least it gets me out of cleaning up dark red wax.

So I go get my mom and come back and Art is SITTING ON THE COUCH WATCHING HBO! But then I think, hey he said he'd pay my bill this month so I'll go clean up the wax. I clean the wax. Hook up a new keyboard and mouse. Then I go into the living room to say 'hey I am done with this' and he comes and INSPECTS IT! 

Man I was pissedddddd. I can't even tell you how pissed. I still am a little pissed. 

Anyways moral of the story...candles suck balls.

Catching Up

Wow, I haven't written in a while. I promised myself I would write but more importantly I promised my therapist. But how can I write when I have nothing to say...hmm does me saying my therapist told me to write break the confidentiality thing. I doubt it.

Uhm...lets see...found out some news that could be very bad, but everything is still in the air. Yesterday my parents landlord came over to our house and said that both his son and daughter-in-law are out of jobs and they have 2 kids...so he's giving our house (which he still owns) to them. And since my parents haven't really signed a lease since we first moved in, some 7 years ago, we can't really fight it. So he wants us out by April 1st...we have 4 pets...do you know how hard it is to find a rental place that allows 4 pets. Well then he calls again last night and tells my parents that his son and daughter-in-law may be moving to her home country of Prague so if thats the case then we get to stay. My mom was pretty torn up about it and yeah its sad but hey I have a lot of other shit on my mind to get all crazy emotional about this. When the time comes I'll let the proper emotions let themselves out.

I think it'll be way harder if for some reason we can't find a place that lets us keep all the pets and I have to get rid of Mouse, that will kill me. She's like my child. This sounds so stupid but in Lakewood I have like 2 friends, and my cat. So she's like my best friend. God I'm so pathetic, I need a life.

I've been really down lately about myself. Basically I feel like because I can't find a job I'm kind of failing myself. Like I graduated from college for gods sake and I can't even find a job in retail. This is bullshit. And I want to just move to L.A. and say FUCK IT and give acting a try professionally. But the problem is I can't really move without money.

And another thing that's been on my mind a lot is I want a guy. Not really a boyfriend, I miss having someone to cuddle with, I fucking LOVE cuddling. But I can't really cuddle in my parents house. And how does one MEET people outside of college. Especially when I'm not really a bar hopper or anything.

Today was kind of fun. Art's cousins Kenny and Dell both came over to help Art move in the new fridge (why get a new fridge if we may be moving out in a month, WHO KNOWS) anyways when these three get together its worse than my family. These guys literally just try and out scream each other. They've been here since 10 am...nearly 12 hours. It's been loud. They also partake in...some...recreational drugs. Which makes things a little louder. I went down in the basement and played pool with Kenny. I suck at pool. So he was trying to coach me while we were competing but I did beat him twice in a row. GO ME!

Anyways this is the most random sporadic post ever but WHATEVER.

Quizzy Thing Stolen From Jessica

I saw that Jessica posted this little survey thing and I haven't been updating lately because I have nothing to say so I figured filling out this survey could be fun! YAY!

1. High heels or boots? Boots, I fail at heels.


2. What time did you get up this morning? 10:40....but I didn't fall asleep till like 3 am :(

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Shutter Island with Leonardo Dicaprio my one and only.

4. What is your maiden name? Aull

5. What is your favorite TV show? Sex and the City...hands down best tv show EVER

6. What did you have for breakfast? I don't usually eat breakfast cuz my stomach HATES it.

7. What is your middle name? Nicole

8. What food do you dislike? Salad...its just wrong.

9. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Lady Antebellum - Need You Now...soooo good.

10.What characteristic do you despise? hm...cockiness.

11.Favorite Clothing? My style has been changing lately. I enjoy flowy tops.

12.Any where in the world on vacation? I really want to go somewhere warm. maybe AUSTRALIA

13.Are you an organized person? Not at all. I like to organize things though, like other people's stuff when it isn't organized. But my own stuff is a mess.

14.Where would you retire too? Somewhere far far away. Maybe the MOON

15.What was your most recent memorable birthday? Hmmm, my most recent was 22 and I went and got a drink with Theresa then hung out with Sean, Kim and Kendra.

16.What are you going to do when you finish this? Maybe read a little

17.Furthest place you are sending this? I'm not really sending it to anyone since its in my blog.

18.Person you expect to send it back first? I will go with N/A

19.When is your birthday? October 6th

20.Are you a morning person or a night person? A night person FOR SURE.

21.What is your shoe size? 8-8.5

22.Do you own any animals? Lets see...two WEINER DOGS...Zeus and Calypso...2 cats...Misty and Mouse

23.Any news you'd like to share? Well the job I thought I was gonna get...turns out it was a scam and they expect me to sell coupon books door to door...yeah no thanks.

24.When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? A princess...I'm still working towards that.

25.What is your favorite flower? Orchid or Lily....its a toss up.

26.What is a day on the calendar you are looking forward to? Hmm, I'm not looking to any day on the calendar really.

27.If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Purple

28.What is under your bed? A vitamin water bottle, a shoe, and my wii fit balance board.

29.How is the weather right now? SNOWY! AH I HATE IT!

30.Last person you spoke to on the phone? The guy who was going to give me the second interview. Shaun Keusch is his name. Scamming people is his game.

31.Favorite drink? Sweet Iced Tea

32.Favorite restaurant? Chili's...only because their Cajun Chicken Pasta is to DIE for.

33.Hair color? Plain ol BROWN...natural color is kind of a dirty blonde, really ugly.

34.What was your favorite toy as a child? Barbies, I had an army of barbies.

35.Spring Summer, Fall or Winter? Spring

36.Chocolate or vanilla? Chocolate.

37.Coffee or tea? Tea

38.Wish you were still young? I still am pretty young, but sometimes I wish I was a kid again.

39.Do you want your friends to email you back? Its not really an email.

40.When was the last time you cried? In therapy last week I think.

41.What did you do last night? Read my book, played video games...thats about it.

42.Did someone not like this question? WHAT?!

43.What are you afraid of? Bears...scariest creatures in the whole wide world.

44.Salty or sweet? Depends on my mood, I like both.

45.Best quality you have? My eyes are pretty.

46.How many years at your current job? I don't have a current job. How depressing.

47.Favorite day of the week? Saturday

48.How many people will you send this to? How many times do I have to tell you ITS A BLOG!

49.How many will respond? However many want to!

50.Do you like finding out all this stuff about your friends? Sure you betcha

Depressssinnngggg

Haha so much for posting everyday right! I'm lazy and stupid like that. But to be fair for 2 of those days I was hunched over my toilet heaving my guts out, or over the trash can or laying in bed just crying. I hate throwing up. I would literally rather lie around and be nauseous for the rest of my life than throw up. So yes I'm back and healthy, although still a little dehydrated so I'm getting rather shaky easily.

Some issues right now that weigh heavily on my mind all the time that I think I need to introduce to my blog so that when they come up in future blogs its not all CRAZY dramatic. One thing is that I am going through some intensive therapy for my "daddy issues" as I like to call them. For those of you who don't know (and by 'for those of you who don't know' I mean you mr. text editor box) my dad passed away when I was 13. It was a hard time in my life despite the fact that we never really got along all that well, family is family. Anyways since that time in my life I've been know be extremely self-deprecating and just generally down on myself ALL the time. So I'm in therapy and so far I really like my therapist so I'm excited to see if this can work out. The problem is I can't trust men, because I never trusted the first man in my life, and when I do trust men they take that trust and throw it back in my face. I don't deal with that kind of rejection because to me its more than just being rejected...its abandonment to me. I never really understood why I reacted to this so strongly until I started reading this book 'Adult Children of Alcoholics' which is making me realize that there are other people out there who feel these exact same things.

Random picture of me and my dad :)


Anyways that brings me to my second issue that I'm dealing with (big issue, I have a lot of little issue) I am having extreme issues getting over my ex...and we only dated a month...to me thats pathetic. He's still my best friend, I should still be grateful he's in my life but I just can't. And he's the one guy who hasn't thrown my trust back in my face.

Sooooo yeah. Thats what I'm dealing with as of late and I'm hoping things will get better, soon. Cuz I'm tired of being down. I'm going on medication in march for my depression and anxiety so that'll be a welcome change! Anyways next time I'll write about something HAPPY! Maybe...if you're lucky.

Okay LETS DO THIS

So my therapist said she thinks it would be good if I tried to journal somehow everyday to keep my mind relaxed and not let my emotions build up, so I'm going to do just that. Lets face it, I hate writing, it hurts my hand but while I'm wasting time on the computer I might as well type right!

Not really sure I have much of anything to say today but I did have therapy early this morning and she asked me to read a book about Children of Alcoholics, and I couldn't find it anywhere but I did find a similar book and I must say that I feel that this book and the things it says about children of alcoholics is really eye-opening.

The one thing that I'm not quite to yet but I'm interested to read is more about the statement "Adult children of alcoholics judge themselves without mercy." I do this. I do this A LOT. I can't go a day without judging myself in some way and even when people tell me I'm judging myself wrongly I think "well you don't know anything about me so how could you possibly know" its a hard thing to deal with to say the least.

I also think I'll use this blog to kind of document my day, and as boring as that is I'm not writing this for anyone but myself. Thats what I need to realize in order to get better, I need to be okay with myself before I can be okay with other people.

Anyways...what did I do today? I went to therapy at 8:30 am which is RIDICULOUSLY early for me. But thats the point, gotta get out of my depression so I gotta start getting out of bed. After therapy I went to the library to look for the book but couldn't find it so I got the Adult Children of Alcoholics book and Benjamin Button on dvd lol. Then I met my parents for breakfast/early lunch at village in. After that my mom went with me to the used bookstore then to Barnes and Noble, Jamba Juice and Target. I bought Shutter Island at B&N....why did anyone tell me this was a book?! So now I must finish it before the movie because thats what I DO! At target I got some socks and bermuda shorts, sweat pant style. So comfy.

When I got home, I took a nap. Then I ate some food and read for a while.

This is insanely boring but frankly my dear I don't give a damn.